I'M OVERWEIGHT AND I'M NOT PROUD ABOUT IT.

Hahah see how short and frumpy i look.With big arm and tight."Makcik".I posed side ways so i dont look like potato .

OVERWEIGHT that's the key word! I was living with it for 2 years .Sedih! yup and i hate it..but i dont give a care about it until this month.

Let me tell you why...

I'm 34 years old (yup i never embrassed to tell my age) women,mother and wife with low metobolism due to age factor and bad lifestyle habits.I have a busy lifestyle and not eating right and malas dan benci nak bersenam and I'm overweight.OVERWEIGHT!Being fat was not  my option.I just love to eat and tak kisah pasal what is my calories intake and i HATE bersenam.I like to take thing easy way out.I used to go to slimming centre all tak JADI.

My height is 157cm and my weight is 67kg..67kg! I'm short,dark skin with pimples but no pigmentation. and i have a huge "bumper".People make fun about me.Saying things about my bumper,saying how bulat i look and how short i am.and i look like makcik.I usally smile and make jokes about it.And they think i'm ok with it.Actually I hate when they say such things..so when i'm sad i eat.Is my easy way out to cool my self down.

Sedih..bila kita overweight semua komen,semua nak tunjuk dia punya cara yg baik dan buleh pakai, bukan nya memberi inspirasi dan idea nak hidup sihat dan cara pemakanan yg betul,

Then i relize i have to end all this...i have to put a STOP.But when i said i'm on diet, all people give their so called "nasihat."Saying the diet i'm taking is not good and not suitable.They question me why i eat so little because usally i eat alot and with my body shape they know i can eat alot,no one want to share food with me because they assume i can finnish all.(i hate wasting food,amalan setan).Then again it de-motivated me .When i start to exercise..some say i have to do running for 40minits and so.Do that and this.Come on! i never excersice for 2 years and you all expected me to run for 30 minits?Just because you people have more lean body shape,please do not say things that you think can motivated me, i feel like is more insulting.Different people have different bodyshape and size.That does not mean your diet and exercise regime works on me.

Nobody motivated me..no one.So i turn to food.My only companion.Since i can cook so cooking is also part of my theraphy.Then  suddenly on  7th October ,i look in the mirror only with my undergarments .Looking me back was a ugly looking women or makcik(that is what some people called names to me) who is SAD and OVERWEIGHT.

"THAT'S IT!!!!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!THIS IS NOT WHAT I USED TO BE.I WANT  MY BODY BACK AGAIN LIKE 12 YEARS AGO!IF I CAN and USED TO BE THAT WEIGHT..I CAN NOW!!!"

I told my self.."Dont let anyone say things to hurt you..yes you do have weight issue and you must bring it down ,do it regardless what other says."

Since i got Plantar Fisitis, a pain at my lower foot.And a pain for flat foot.I cannot run so much because it will give mor impact on my knees and foot. So i must walk. First what i did was i must have a plan and stick to it.

1. I make Jennifer Hudson and Jordin Sparks as my Inspiration.They both manage to loose weight
2. I buy e-book from Kevin Zahri.Learn how to eat correctly with Malaysian Food and Diet and exercising according your phase.
3. I excersice almost everyday.One hour the max.30  minits power walk and 30 minit kardio.I do on target ares such as tummy/abs and tight.But i also do other parts like for my buttocks,back and arm.Everyday i burn 200 calorie just on exercising.I know is not enough,but at least something from nothing.Adding on top of that,I do house work together with my maid and i park further and walk up to my 5th floor just to burn some calories.

1. I watched what i eat..no McD,no junkfood,no can food,less salt and sugar and No 3in 1 Nescafe.I"m addicted to coffee so i take with no sugar and creamer .I replace rice to brown or multi grain bread.I make sure i'm taking 500-1000 calorie perday.I must eat 5 times a day 3 meals with 2 sneks in between.And i'm drinking more then 8 glasses of water and green tea.0 calorie water is wayyy much better.
2. I'm also taking PROTIEN from NUTRILITE and meal replacement POSITRIM also from NUTRILITE.I usally mix in Protien powder and Positrim for my dinner.I keep busy to avoid myself thinking about food, at night teman anak baca buku or teman Iman practice her Piano.If lapar i drink susu Analene low fat milk .
3. My snacks usally coffee without sugar and creamer nowdays and green apple or multi grain busciuts or plain yourgurt.
4. I'm also taking other supplements such as DOUBLE X,CALCIUM and MAGNISUM,VIT C and GLUCOSAMINE for my week knees during excersice.These to help me to stay cergas,active and stay fit.Because everytime we excersice we dioxide so i take this anti-oxidant supplement to replace back.

Up to this date,i only loose 1 kg ,despite what i controlled, and some of friends says i still look the same fat.And saying the supplement that i take is not helping.And saying that and this to me.I still go forth!Hello!! I just started on 7th October and today is 22nd its only 15 days.BUT..i feel great and much better.I reduced few inches on my tight and waist area.

 "Optimal Health is the best health you are capable of, given your past and your genetic heritage."

This time i wont give up.With Kevin Zahri's book and guide by my side exercise right according to your capability and slowly increase the momentum,eating right with NUTRILITE supplement and meal replacment and with will power to slim down to my ideal weight according with my height and to make my self look youthfull with ARTISTRY skincare.Insyallah by 02.02.2012 i will achived my target.
And as i told you i hate exercise..but now all have change..

To stay slim and slander FOR ME is NOT JUST LOOKING GOOD AND SHOWING OFF THE SHAPELY FIGURE WITHOUT TUMMY BULGING OUT OR MUFFIN TOP while wearing Levi's Curve ID jeans.

• IS ABOUT BEING  HEALTHTY AND  STAYING YOUTHFULL NOT JUST INSIDE BUT OUTSIDE AND SKIN DEEP.

• I WANT TO GROW OLD GRACEFULLY..WITH LESS WRINKELS AND  A YOUNG HEART BEATING,WITH MY JOINTS MOVING ABOUT AND STILL POWER WALKING.

• I CHALLANGE MY SELF TO BE SLENDER AGAIN NOT FOR PEOPLE THAT USED TO  INSULTING ME, BUT FOR MY SELF AND MY HEALTH.

• USING GOOD SUPPLEMENT PRODUCTS LIKE NUTRILITE ,EXERCISING AND EATING RIGHT..INSYALLAH I CAN DO IT! WITHIN 5 MONTH FROM NOW.

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"Exercise is not my life.....exercise makes my life better!"

 

 

 

 

CINTA itu LOVE

Lama tak menulis kan.....almost a month..banyak perkara telah berlaku..yup I'm falling in LOVE again...and again..with the same person for the last 16 years.And I do found new CINTA along the way too.And the CINTA i  share with my LOVE ones..especially to my children,parents, families and of course...the endless devotion and love is to Allah..which i keep it personal ya.Don't like to brag too much when it comes  my LOVE to Allah.Is between us ONLY..

Well this time around I'm going to discuss about CINTA..such a lovely word and very power full indeed.Allah maha Kuasa mencipta perasaan ini Sungguh Agung dan Suci jika ia digunakan dgn cara yg betul dan jijik dan menyusahkan bila CINTA itu  berpaling arah "betrayed".

Sebab CINTA buleh buat orang tu jadi GILA .Ya GILA BAYANG, ANGAU dan SEWEL dan sebab CINTA ada juga  membuat seseorang tu positif macam komitment,teguh,displin...dan ada juga sanggup berkorban apa saja kerana CINTA

Apa itu cinta? Apa  definisi CINTA menurut pandangan kamu?
Kalau akulah CINTA itu ABSTRAK .Setiap orang melihatnya berlainan dari sudut perspektif individu.

Cinta adalah sebuah perasaan yang ingin membagi bersama atau sebuah perasaan afeksi terhadap seseorang.
- Wikipedia

Kasih sanggup berkorban dan tidak mengharapkan balasan, seperti bakti dari hati ikhlas ibubapa untuk anak-anak mereka.

1.  Cinta lemah kerana ia mengharapkan atau menuntut balasan cinta dari pihak yang satu.
2.  Cinta lahir kerana tarikan atau disebabkan saling tertarik dan berakhir bila tidak ada respon
3. Cinta itu hodoh kerana dipenuhi perkara yang bodoh termasuk dengki, prasangka, gangguan emosi, gangguan kesihatan, aktiviti luar nikah, impian palsu, mimpi di siang hari, gila bayang, dalam dunia fantasi dsb.
4. Cinta hanya akan menjadi matang bila berjaya mencapai ke tahap tertinggi sekali iaitu kasih . Kasih itu waras, sedar dengan apa yang dilakukannya, tidak mengharapkan balasan, mementingkan kebahagiaan yang dikasihi dan sanggup menderita, tidak melihat dirinya lebih penting daripada orang yang dikasihi, sanggup berkorban, memelihara dan bukan mengambil kesempatan, tidak mudah berprasangka, mencari jalan perdamaian, tidak meninggikan diri, jujur, ikhlas dan mendoakan orang yang dikasihinya walaupun mungkin dia sendiri disalah erti mahupun dibenci. Kasih tidak ada penghujungnya…

Love is just more a game for two...love was made for me and you.So when you Love somebody..remember it comes with pengorbanan,keikhlasan dan kejujuran.

P/S

Jangan mudah memberi CINTA,dan hati hati pada CINTA pandang pertama...sebab CINTA itu buta tak kenal rupa paras dan harta.CINTA harus ikhlas dan disusuli dengan hormat.Tapi bila Nafsu "joint venture" hmmp lain pula ceritanya..itu cerita lain pulak ok..Pasal NAFSU itu LUST!

YOU CAN COUNT ON ME!......

I was a lonely child and love having friends by my side, that i can talk to,laugh and having fun together.

I have friends  that always i count on, friends that will accept my good and bad.Always there for my shoulder to cry on.

Except me as what i am.Friends that i grow and  share all the moments together.

These special friends has been around me when I'm in sorrow and in my happiness.Thank you and always forever be my closest friends forever.

And these friends grows gracefully with me,loving them every each of the moment.Because each of you are very special individual to me.

Forever Friends and You can Count on me!

Special dedicated this song to you all...

“Your decision that you made today reflects what you going to have tomorrow and later on, so decide wisely. Use your mind and your heart not your emotion.” Babah-Mohd Sarif Musa

 My father, the man I looked up to. He teaches me what is life and death .What is sadness, what happiness is, what is rich and what is poor. He never teach me based on textbook..but by his words of wisdom, jokes and stories. He is very strict and protective and yet always makes me laugh out loud.

He always said to me to think twice before making any decision. Is the decision that I made by my emotion or by mind? Who will be affected with the decision that I made? What are the risks? Can I handle the risks? Can I take it? Always discuss with parents or ederly get their point of view.How bad you want it and is it  because everybody has it or is a need?

There are so many questions I have to answer before the decision is made. Is not easy for a simple needs like “can I go for a movie with my friends?” or “can I have this for dinner instead of these?” huh sound odd but yes…my father will have question for everything I do. From choosing  which University to go, to jobs, friends and boyfriends. (I don’t discuss about boyfriends with my father that is so odd. Only with mom.)Is like telling mom-father will know.

But everything happens for a reason right? Even you have made the decision wisely and the effort to make it happened and yet it did not turn out as what we planned. But  again I was planted from day 1..belive in Takdir , Qadaq and Qadar. Things did not work because….is it my fault or is it theirs? Always see both side of coin, Each tells a different stories .At the end never put too much blame on us or even others.Learn from mistakes and how to improvise about it.

That is what I have been thought…and it have been fill nicely for my resources for the journey of my life ahead without him by my side as guidance.

Missing u babah..

Babah with Hafiz..my nephew semasa bercuti di Turki.

Di Masjid Nabawi with the boys....

Selamat Semuanya Wahai Iman...

Tak sangka ,tarikh lahir anak sulong aku sama dengan HARI MALAYSIA dan dalam mood Raya 1432H.Masuk tahun nih dah lapan tahun dah dia..sekejap betul masa berlalu.8 tahun dulu  kakinya sebesar tapak tangan aku.Sekarang dah tinggi pandai berkata -kata dan bijak dalam pelajaran.

Anak sulung nih, banyak keistimewaannya.Ya lah, dia first born jadi semuanya pengalaman baru bagi both of us.Pengalaman masa mula-mula melahirkan dia susah tapi ya lah dengan kesabaran berjaya juga.Alhamdulillah lahir lah anak sulong kami Iman Yazmeen Hani yg beratnya hampir 4kg.Kini dia sebagai kakak kepada 2 orang adik sudah pandai memikul tanggungjawab sebagai dan juga Orang Kanan saya yg paling penting.

Hari jadi kali ini khusus disambut bersama teman baik dan adik tersayang.Itulah permintaannya.Selama ini dia tidak menceritakan siapa teman baiknya.Malah dia tak punya ramai kawan.Hanya tertentu sahaja, kali ni Iman seperti nak memperkenalkan kawan baiknya kapada saya.

Tema kali ni..POWER  PUFF GIRLS ,dia peminat no1.Ini kerana PPG melambangkan kekuatan, bijak,kecomelan, dan semangat kerjasama.Ya harap begitulah dia dan adiknya-adiknya.Merasakan dirinya Blossom yg mempunyai born leadership,berfikiran jauh,playfull spirit dan relible.Seorang yg tegas dan perfectionist dalam segala hal. Malah Iman adalah seorang yg  honest and reliable. Tak malu dalam melaksanakan tanggungjawab and would be logical and rational in her thought process. Understanding and analyzing people itu lah Iman,meneliti orang sebelum dia berkenalan.Patutlah tak ramai kawan.Anyway is ok,berhati hati dalam pemilihan kawan.Iman suka membaca dan menghafal sungguh jauh berbeza dari saya. Itulah anak saya yg saya bangga dan sayang.

Dear Iman

Mama wishes you happy birthday,u are are usually quite easy to raise.  You are super neat, organized, and have a gentle sense of humor . Insyallah ur wishes will come true.Hope you are happy always and mama always love you unconditionally.



Seorang Putri Yg Baik Hati-Izwah Yazmin

Al-Kisah seorang Putri yg aku kenali..

Putri Izwah or Izwah good looking  and forever slim and slander woman with brains, a very interesting and mysterious person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. Always and must be on the move.Be it masa kerja or even being temporary heheh housewife.This Putri of mine is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast.



She is soo busy and always on the move still manage to have another bundle of joy.Atilia Puteri yg ke 4 Comeyyyyy.

She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something
new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type.Even when she likes to be friend with me and wonder about my wit, she will also see and inspect my bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. But I don’t mind because to be a good BFF we must except the bad and good about us .

Buruk dan Baik aku ,terima seadanya dengan hati terbuka dan ikhlas.

Izwah suka  join apa jua activities with the same energy that I have.  Kalau I ada new projects dan tahu aku ada masalah ker atau benda baru nak cuba, she can give me good advice.Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you.

She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything.

Partner In Crime -Amirah Bakri

Well what can I say..my Amirah Bakri is my partner in doing Crime and Justice.Both of us the Gadis from the “The Land of  9 Countries ” (heheh.Sound like a Super Heroin Comic.)We both must have a car or should i say SUPER MOBILE..kalau tak ,patah kaki lah Heroin ni ,nak buat "JUSTICE"kena lah   ada kereta . We love going out..hobi lah katakan. And her house is like the “IBU PEJABAT” where food  and place to do the "crime"and lepak after school .Tea breaks are superb,tea and goreng pisang panas or whatever kuih always serve with warm hearted Amirah’s mom.

Miera's mom terbaik.Baik sungguh melayan aku yg tak tau malu nih,asal datang jer sure ada teh o dan kuih.Mak aku pon tak terlayan aku.Thanks Makcik Husna.

Sleepover at her place was somewhat I feel comfort. I enjoyed being around with her family.I recall tidur rumah wan dan atok dia at Seremban..BEST giler !Even my arwah babah likes Miera,and except her a part of our family too. I guess she must missing my babah too……………….

Yg pergi tetap dan pasti,tapi Allah balikkan dengan Anugerah yg tak ternilai ini. Anak Miera yg ke-4.Paling latest.Ammar namanya.Macam nama umi dia Amirah


She is Born under the same star like my mom and my husband, so is easy for me to understand her. But I find Miera  a little bit strange , she is not like other  Taurean  supposed to be ,homebodies and prefer to spend their time there.  She love to be out of the house driving to new shops and food place to venture and happening places to be.Of course when we were not married  both of us will go out and do things together like shopping , go to movies and eat out sampai lewat malam baru balik.I remember we even go to few mosque during Ramadhan just to try out the moreh , solat kat masjid yg berlainan..Ramadhan masa tu best sangat. We love trying new things.

Miera is a loyal and faithful BFF..ask her to teman kemana-mana dia pasti ikut , join any club,MLM, do that and this she sure be there. She sure will give the support that I need. Traditional traits of Miera that I find interesting is her emotional strength .She don’t become upset easily ,she also  avoid looking for sympathy and she will instead rely on her independence and fortitude to get through a stressful situation but don’t provoke her,she have volatile tempers and the capacity for extreme kedegilan.Hahahah  she won't budge on her views unless she's given a very good reason to change them.Ini tersangat Miera yg aku kenal

But again Miera is  always happy and positive in life and makes other feel happy by her side. She’s independence, introversion, and  have a flair for the artistic. Aha! She is Artistic…I guess no one knew about this. I dah tahu lama..just that she never expose her ability. But now  baru aku tahu she can bake Apam Polkodot! Check it out.



Ni Yg aku Order from her.I support Miera apa jua dia buat.I hope dan doakan dia terus buat Apam yg kiut miut nih jadi BUSINESS BESAR!.



Ni lah Apam Polkodot Miera..nampak best.Ceria sangat color dia.

Miera you always ready to provide support and  guidance to me all these years being friends. Thanks for being my closest friend.

Partner In Crime forever ....

Khas buat Miera....